Friday, July 22, 2005
I am suspecting that i am having amnesia... oh no
I cannot get to sleep! I flipped here and there. So i am here now to write off what was on my mind. I have been wanting to write about this.
Sometime back then, while having supper with my parents and her, i noticeably found out that mummy's hand got few scars =( . Did she scald herself at work? Is she working very hard for my study? =..( I felt really sad. I feel she ought to be enjoying her life now. She should be staying at home and doing what ever she wants. She should not be working. Deep in my heart, there came a voice telling me "You should not let her down and finish off the rest of the course" in the middle of the night. I really should. I wanna bring her good life. I dont want to be a disappointment. Furthermore i have a wife-to-be to live with soon. I wont be able to do anything without a cert. I want to make it happen. I want to make it come true. I will finish the rest of the course! I will need to avoid distractions. (*^-^*)
Mummy nagged at me again at 1+ am. Told me to make a decision fast; either get a job or continue my study. Days are passing fast. I think i am going back to school next week. I have to finish the course somehow. I have to have full concentration on my cert. The ROM still goes as planned. No change.. the only thing that is changed will be the program for that memorable day. I had something in mind, just something budget. Bring on the friends.. just friends and family members. hehe..
Had a tiff with her again. Do i have to bring this up another time? We are on a cold war. Did she ever have me in her? This is the second time she approach a colleague for advice rather than me... What the hell. She does not respect me! Is she going to listen to him or me.. I am the one she is going to be living with but not him alright! Things, matters, whatever... first to come in mind , first to approach , first to relate to
WILL have to be the one closest to her.. Am i right fellow human beings????? Hell no.. she chose to approach him! a someone who isnt even close to her. What more it is a "HIM"... HELLO?? ... what is the problem now man
*God damit shit* (pardon me for my language) (hope she knows what is good for her)
Received a mail from her today. Asked me to add in a counter for her site. I have added a few fellow bloggers to mine without them knowing i did. I am not wanting to share with too many of them, but just having a few new ones added to read on sometime. Got news from a friend that she is married just recently. Like hey.. she is younger than me, only 20. I am not alone.. There are people doing it even younger. That is a good thing for me. With this going on, i am more firm with my ROM. =PpPPP
Cheers to young couples~~ and the gonnabes~ We will bring in the future. hahaa
Yesterday i went for a job interview at cineleisure. It was a game shop. I reached and i did not went in. That is just me. Well i guess, that is not an environment for me. Wandered around. Saw Royce and Margaret. I bought something before heading home. It was so embarrassing because of the fat and chubbiness. Got back home pennyless. Hahaa...
Today i went for a try for IPPT at Toa Payoh SAFRA. Wanted to see if i did improve on my running. The facilities at the gym was great. They even have jacuzzi and sauna in the chaning room. Starting to plan for coming as and when i am free to use them. Wondering if they need to charge for SAFRA members. I passed everything with silver standings but fail my 2.4km. At the last 200m, i looked at the timing. It reached the passing timing (2.20km--12m:20s). I stopped the machine and went off. Disappointed. Regretted. I should not have slow down. Could have passed and receive a $350 voucher from the gym. Sigh. But at least i know my standings. I have to work harder.
i am writing this since 5:56am till 7:05am.. woah~ i sure do have alot to write.
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DISNEYmouse winks
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